2nd year already ah??

My my.. How time flies. Pejam celik pejam celik dah setahun berlalu.. Feel like baru semalam masuk MSU. I still remember how it was quite a struggle to live in a windowless small cubicle room for 4 (which my Mom defines it as "gua", yes that was my hostel). The hardest was to adapt myself to stay in a 24/7 airconditioned room, no fan, no choice, except aircond. I had to study sambil bungkus dalam comforter and pakai stokin, and sweater, sometimes. I'm okay with airconds, really, I'm more than happy to be in a room with them, but if they get too much, then I'll get offended. Too bad, turning off the aircond will drown us in uncirculated air! Remember my room is windowless?? While letting the door open, would bring distraction to us, you see people walking along the corridor? Great, so no solution other than to tutup pintu and pasang aircond. :)

Owh, and TV was absent (which I'm only care when I'm stressed). So, no biggie sangatt!

I can sayyy, I learnt a lot throughout my first year. About studies, friendships, families, relationships and who I was (or "who I am", I might not have changed in certain parts), personally. And the struggle, the heartbreak, the devastation, the stress, the fight, the acceptance, the difference, the adaptation, the downer, the tears, the giving up. Ya Allah, ni baruu first year, belum final year lagii. -_-"

Yeah, that was when I first came here as a freshman. :D

Now it's been a week since I became a sophomore. My first year result, Alhamdulillah.. Though quite far from the best, but I managed to get beyond what i targetted. Thank you Allah, for giving me more than I asked. :') Thank you to my parents, families, friends and lecturers for supporting me, and helping me a lot. Hanya Allah dpt membalas. :)

Now I'm living in a much comfy hostel, a 2 room apartment with plenty of windows. No more a windowless, fan-less cubical room. No aircond though, but I can sleep soundlyy. But masa first2 baru pindah tu, bukak kipas paling maksima tapi berpeluh2 jugak lah tidur malam saya dibuatnya. Hehe. Now, dah tak berpeluh daaahhh. :)

Alhamdulillah my housemates juga baik2 belaka, and we get along well. Love both of youu lahh! :)

Howeverrr, semester ini agak menakutkan. My friends semua cakap, 2nd year susaaahhh. And I always get this creepy feeling whenever I look at the subjects I took for this semester.

Clinical Microbiology

Clinical Biochemistry

Basic Pathology

Immunology & Serology

English for General Purposes

Ya Allah, will I be able to do it?? Will I be able to score?? T_T

All I'm hoping for is the best. The best. The best. The best in everything. Ameen~

p/s: Assignment dah ada, homework pun dah adaa.. I'm out for lunch, and do my work afterwards. Today's class begin at 6pm-8pm. Pretty weird eh?? Have a nice day, people!! :)

Alhamdulillah..

Bakat dikurnia jangan disalah guna

Jangan kufur nikmat yang diberi percuma

Guna kelebihan untuk hikmah bersama

Jagalah nama hidup penuh pementasan dan drama

Ada berisi ada yang kurus,ada melencong ada yang lurus bukan semuanya tulus

Ada sempurna ada kurang upaya ada yang jadi buta hanya bila sudah kaya

Sebesar rumah bermula dengan sekecil bata,boleh hilang dalam sekelip mata

Ucaplah Alhamdulillah bukannya sukar, kerna semua nak kaya atau besar

tetap Allahuakbar!

Jadikanlah ku tentera Fisabilillah yang tertera di kalimah harap memanduilah

Entah apabila persimpangan tiba,hidup penuh rintangan harus kuhadapinya

Harapku tidak terlupa diri bila gembira,dan cuma mula mencari Kau disaat hiba

Ku cuma manusia penuh dengan kesilapan tapi bisa membezakan cahaya dan kegelapan

Tabah bila dihalangan duri onak dan cobaan

Teguh bila dicobakan keruh kuasa dan perempuan

Sentiasa legar diminda,dikejar dan dipinta dari zaman bermula hingga ke akhirnya

Ku mengerti siapa ku tanpaMu disisi dan apa guna posesi juga posisi

Sementara ini cuma hanya puisi,nukilan tulisan dan bisikan isi hati

Mencari keterangan,menjiwai peranan menepati pesanan janji juga saranan

Alhamdulillah atas kurniaan rezeki,moga tidak terleka dalam perjalanan ini

Aku yang memandang di dalam lubuk hati,mencari-cari zat rahsia yang katanya tersembunyi

Aku yang melihat alam meliputi wujud menyertai lalu ku pindahkan alam ke dalam mata hati

Aku hakiki,aku mengerti segala yang terjadi di langit dan di bumi

Gunanya tiada fantasi, pelik dan benar,qada' dan qadar Kau berilah ku kekuatan

agar dapat ku hindarkan segala kesesatan

Usah Kau biar nafsuku terliur dari pandangan majazi ini,

Aku yang hodoh lagi hina amat benar merindui

Moga cahaya lailatul tak membutakan mataku,semoga segala puji tak ku meninggi diri

Moga segala janji dapat juga ku penuhi,moga dapatku hadapi tikaman dari belakang

lidah setajam pisau, ku tidak akan risau dengan dugaan,cabaran sepanjang perjalanan

ku pasrah ku akur 7,8,6 Alhamdulillah syukur..

[Alhamdulillah by Too Phat]

The Call

I was lepak-ing peacefully in my parents' room watching tv.

*my phone rang*

I looked at the screen. Unsurprised. Urggghh.

Quickly switched it to the silent mode.

Then the ringing paused a while.

Bzzz! Bzzz! Bzzz! It vibrated.

Then, stopped itself.

Bzzz! Bzzz! bzzz! Again.

Silence. Peace.

And Bzzz! Bzzz! Bzzz! Again?

Urghh!

Mama asked, "Sape tu..? Kenapa tak angkat..?"

I answered her lazily while trying to find the most polite excuse,

"Hmm. Malas... takde mood nak ckp phone ngan sesape today..Kalau sms, Syireen boleh je reply.. Boring lah kalau borak on the phone everyday..."

Mama said, "Kalau everyday dgn kawan2 lain, tak bosan punn..?"

I protested, "Mana ada.. kawan2 lain takde pun call Syireen everyday mcmtuu."

Mama replied, with a motherly advice, "Tak baik buat org mcm tu.. Nanti org buat kat kita nanti.."

before she stepped into the toilet.

Her words made me stared at the closed wooden toilet door for a while.

Static.

Bzzz! Bzzz! Bzzz!

Startled. Turned to my phone that was lying there so weakly, as if asking my sympathy to be picked and answered.

I grabbed it, and pushed the green button.

"Hello, Assalamualaikum.." trying to sound as bubbly as possible.

while walking out of my parents room and into my room.

To seek privacy, I guess.

In my room, talking with the person calling.

Talked about a lot of things. Including our movie date.

I actually had fun talking and listening, I mean, genuinely, yes, it was fun,

and I was laughing and smiling seikhlas hati tak hengat dunia!

until

the caller asked me,

"Why didnt you reply my fb msg? You're always like that.."

with sulking voice.

I was like. Err.

Suddenly I remembered Mama's words,

and then I felt like crying...!!!!

Ya Allah.. Sumpah rasa nak nangesss!!

I felt soooooo guiltyyyy!!

I heard my inner voice saying,

I'm sorrryyyyyyy!!! I was bad...!!! I was mean for treating you that way.

Ya Allah. Maafkan hambamu ini. Sesungguhnya insan yg sedang bercakap telefon dgnku ini tersangat lah innocent. Ampunkan lah segala kejahatan yg telah aku lakukan, ya Allah..

I tried to hide my about-to-cry voice and I answered calmly, giving the best answer I could think of and deeply, very deeply, apologised.

And my apology accepted.

Phewh.. Alhamdulillah..

And we continued chatting, laughing until "Bubbye, Assalamualaikum.."

then only I realized, we had talked for almost an hour.

And a smile still sticked on my face until I walked back into my parents' room.

After Mama had done with solat Isya' and sunat, she asked me, "Lama borak.."

And I answered, "A'ah...tetiba rasa best plak borak tadi..tak sedar pun sampai sejam.."

with a biiiig grin! :D

"But perhaps you hate a thing although it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing although it is bad for you.

Allah knows, while you do not know."

{Al-Baqarah: 216}

Oi, I wanna meet you!

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

[HAVEN'T MET YOU YET by MICHAEL BUBLE]

They look pretty, pretty bad for your health.

Lately terasa macam nak pakai heels pulak. But but I don't have any heels. Not even a single pair. None. Zero. Nada.

Yes, I'm telling you the truth.

What? You saw me wearing 3-inch heels?? Aw, that was my mom's, fyi.

I'm serious. Por favor, trust me..! Grr!

*jenguk my rak kasut*

Pumps...pumps...pumps....flat sandals...flat slipper....wedges...pumps....flats lagii...

Hurrrmmmm. *yawn*

BORRRIINGG!!

So, I decided to browse the net! eBay..!! Since I found it to be the most easy place to find stuff. Just type "heels" then search, and tadaa! hundreds, or sometimes, thousands come out. *wink*

And wuuu. That looks nice! but too pricey.. Naahh!

Owh, thats cheap cheap cheap! But why is it so ugly??

Browse and browse. And suddenly my eyes were glued! To this!

A 7-inch heels???!!! Who on earth would want to wear thiss??!!

Is this picture for real?? or maybe just a piece of edited picture trying to cheat our eyes?

Well, it was on sale. So, guess it's real huh??

Whoever wants to wear this, has to lift her foot up to an angle of almost 90 degrees!

GILA!

After seeing that heels, I didn't feel that much satisfied. So I googled.

And guess what i found?? Yes, I found even more super crazy high heels!!

And the winner goes to......*drum roll*

Mihai Albu 12-inch heels!!

OMG!!!

Again, WHO ON EARTH WOULD WANT TO WEAR THAT??!!

WHO ON THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE WOULD BE DARING(STUPID IS A MEAN WORD) ENOUGH TO BUY THAT??!!

DOUBLE TRIPLE THE GILA-NESS!

Don't you love your backboneS??

Even if they give them to me for free, I won't wear those!!

NEVER..!!!

"If people value their health, avoid these killer heels at all costs - they're not worth the risk",

-The Mirror quoted Health And fitness chief Dax Moy, as saying.

Hmm. Better stick to the boring me, ah guess.

Wink!